"RISING"
[19 POEMS FROM THE UNIVERSE]
by
JANICE FAY 'CHRISTI' COLE
PEACE
While The Wind Keeps On Coming,
I Lay My Head Against The Firm And Steady Rock.
The Feeling Is So Satisfying,
Because I k ow Everything Will Be Alright.
I Know This Now More Than Ever.
Thank God.
FOR THE FIRST TIME, WE WERE LOVED
For the first time
We made love
Silhouettes of your body where shaped
By the cloudiness of the day
Outside our window
As we undressed...slowly...our eyes pierced through
Each other with a power of love...warmth...sweetness
We've never...ever known.
Me reaching for you and bringing you
Close and closer..was like a part of me
I never knew was missing You feel the same way too.
As I lay on my back...You pushed away
Just enough for my hands to
Wander from your shoulder to
Your breast to
Your waist to
Your...
You released yourself again into
My arms You kissed me with passion...depth
We were finally one
One body
Oneself
For the first time, We were loved!
HOLDING ON*
Pushing it way back
Back so far that it doesn't touch me
I wonder if I'll ever be able to tell you
Face to face, How much I love you
How much it is taking for me to remain
Sane... and not be overwhelmed by the untamable, uncontrollable love...
Love???
Is there no other word that can describe how one feels
When they know
Who they are to share with, grow with, caress with, make love with always
And forever.
So with all that hurts, with all that makes me cry, with all that I don't understand,
all that makes me feel... out of control... I push back
Waaaaaaaaaaaaaay Back
What should be
Happiness - Joy - Release
I feel I have to
I feel I have to... to survive
It's been almost two decades that
I've suppressed this - but now
It's like a volcano -
Nothing within the power of a human being can stop it from
Overflowing - coming out
All else that I'm pushing back
All else that I know can be made better... in time by me
I've tried to suppress - keep in prospective... is rising too
I pray to God that I'm able to fulfill all that is inside/outside
Before I die and before anyone else dies or becomes deathly ill Mentally or Physically
I pray to God that so many I know of & that I don't know of who are family... friends...
Others be blessed with miracles of Joy, Happiness, Success and... Peace
I pray to God for all that I need to have that
Happiness... Joy... Release
I pray to God to help me to just let go and allow
Love...
Happiness...
Joy...
and Peace...
Into my life, my being, my soul... myself... from God
- This is Everlasting -
Just Love
Just Happiness
Just Peace
Just Success
Yes, I thank God.
PRECIOUS PAT (ALIAS SONIA MC COY)
Its been difficult,
I know,
Its been confusing,
Yes, I know,
But...,
To understand the perils of the parallels of it all,
Limit not yourself to your experiences.
Seek out all the possibilities
That each experience May have
May have
May have Presented to you.
Its been difficult...I know.
But, it was glorious too.
Its been confusing...You bet.
But, clarities end result
Is such that
Love...
Simple Love...
OUTLASTS
OUTBOASTS
OUTPERFORMS
OUTWEIGHS
All...Of...It
It's Everlasting!
Thank God
SHE LAUGHED WHEN YOU...WERE AROUND
I remember that she laughed most when you were around.
You were the Special One. I think she saw herself in you,
That part which would take chances,
For love, For freedom, For being her own..Woman,
But she never did.
So I saw her lonely and alone...mostly...sad...most.
But I knew she was beautiful, and I loved her.
I Loved Her.
She laughed most when you were around,
And in her sound of laughter,
Rose from the deep life...peace.
For those moments shared with you,
While my ears glued to and pierced the walls, the windows,
And the wide, long beautiful, green, flower-bedded, elegantly
landscaped yard, (The neighbors and passerby's would always
comment), which she and my Father worked for years,
I held steadfast to her moments of happiness, her smile, her laughter as
long as I could.
For I knew that when you left her presence...It would all...vanish,
But I knew she was beautiful and joyful and,
I loved her. I Love Her.
VIVID LOVE ARISING
I see my sunshine coming.
I see my sunshine coming through the clouds.
Opening the way for love, life and the pursuit of happiness.
Moving the dark clouds that blinded me.
Clearing the way.
Clearing the way.
I feel my sunshine coming.
Bringing a smile to erase all reason of sadness.
Bringing moments of compassion, passionate love, never-ending.
Plodding through a dry field, irrigating.
Preparing the time of blossoming beauty.
I see my sunshine coming...
My sunshine...
Has arrived.
CONSIDER THIS...STRONGLY
Perhaps your role is too...Step Aside.
Yes we all need each other.
You've had your time and look at what you've projected.
You'll have to let us create a different kind of peace and love.
For your future,
For my future,
For the worlds future,
For your children's future
Future....and How
STEP ASIDE
Release...We do forgive your Ignorance.
Learn now a more profound beauty, peace, love
...and in the midst we'll laugh and laugh.
Aside
Everything is All Right.
NO MATTER THE SITUATION, THERE GOD/LOVE...IS
Last night I had a dream.
It was a very moving one.
For in it I was put to a challenge.
What I mean is, it showed me that in the most difficult and hate-filled
moments,
The veil that covers...This Ever Present Force...
Is Always...
Always...
Removed.
Last night I had this dream.
One I've never dreamed before.
For it was real and I...
Was right smack dab in the presence
of the
KKK.
I/Others/God.
Saved them from themselves.
Playing the piano...a blues song...a duet,
"Talk to Me.. Tell Me What's Worrying You".
She lied in response but...
Lurking within vision...white sheets,
Covering Blindness, Stupidity.
Hoping, wishing...they could kill us,
Me, The Duet Partner, The Choir.
But There was NO WAY they could
We were GOD.
We were GOD.
Before somehow, they'd captured a few.
We went to their camp while they were asleep...rallying...something,
And cut loose the few.
Even some of their own...we freed.
Going back to our part.
They discovered from a distance the freedom that occurred
Yelling, Screaming, Charging, they were after us.
I could hear them, I could feel them...
Looking back to see where our line of people ended and perhaps,
The KKK may be...they were at a far distance...There was fear...yes,
But there was God...Love,
We made it.
There was nothing they could do.
We were God
God was us.
Last night I had a dream.
A dream of Clarity.
A dream of Love.
A dream about God.
God in all of us.
All...All.
VIC...MARCH 30, 1994
The Trees are so high,
That the Sky now seems within reach of,
My Natural grasp.
And
If all things are possible,
Then it has only been a moment,
That I have lived a million years,
And
In this moment I have discovered that this is only the beginning
Because...
there is no end...
And
It is interesting to know that the color of night is yellow.
BREEZY WITH THUNDERSTORMS?...NOT!
There are no clouds in the sky.
Matters not what your first glance may be,
There are no clouds in the sky.
Beyond the horizon is the greatness of God.
AND there are no clouds in the sky.
Looking at Katherine-Catherine (K.C.) eyes...trust...love,
There are no clouds in the sky.
Spirit is here with me...I acknowledge it.
There are no clouds in the sky.
I SEE YOU IN ME...DO YOU SEE ME IN YOU?
Look how we dance.
Look how we sing.
Look how we
S M I L E.
Look at our colors.
Look at our parents.
Listen to our
M...U...S...I...C.
Feel my soul.
Understand my spirit.
Sharing Challenges!
Capacity of deeper wider, everlasting...
L O V E
UNITY
S A M E N E S S
ONENESS.
MUSIC IS A MAGICAL GIFT
I can be out on a sunny day,
Listening to all kinds of music...and
Live many lives...
All in the time it takes each artist to perform their melodies.
I can go from holding someone I deeply love,
To sitting quietly on the beach or near the lake somewhere...alone,
Soaking in God's wondrous creation.
I can eat many meals varying all cultures of the world.
Shrimp, Bread, mango, Greens, Ribs, Corn, Marguerites,
Ginger Ale, Cornbread, Lemon Glazed Chicken, Potatoes,
Fruit, Wine, Tomatoes, Peach-Cobbler, Baklava,
Baba Ghanouj, Cow Tongue, Black-Eyed Peas, Cereal,
Biscuits, Fig Preserves...
I can visit Mandela, talk to Oprah, listen to Maya Angelou.
I can talk to my Mother, Father and my Brother Victor...
And they can take to me too.
I can travel to the Nile, the Swiss Alps, the Bluest Skies.
Music is a magical gift to us.
It is not an accident. No NO No.
It is a purposeful meal,
Given to us,
In time...On time,
To help us,
Understand the stages that life has/is presenting the world.
THE MOMENT CALLED NOW*
• I don't know what tomorrow brings,
But at this moment,
At this moment,
I Love.
• All I can ever hold onto is but a moment,
I inhale.
I exhale,
I do dream,
I do think of the future,
I do work for the moments of the future,
I do pray for the future,
But...
I really... really... only... have this moment.
• With all that surrounds me,
All that I see,
It is mine,
This moment
&
I Love.
• My soul bears witness to a vast, infinite universe.
I pour out my portion of sharing...of caring.
It is never-ending,
Because it is only a moment.
A flick of the hand.
A blink of the eye.
Inhale.
Exhale.
&
I Love.
• There are only two emotions of growth.
Love...which is Always.
&
Fear...which we in mind first...create.
Inhale
Exhale
Love
Live Fully in the moment.
• The robbers of life is the past and the future.
Infinite Spirit
Bless The Past
God
Bless The Future.
Live Fully in the moment.
• A Flower blossoms with trust and... courage.
For it knows there are no obstacles in its path
&
Each moment of its continual birth,
Lies its Beauty...Its Strength.
Inhale...Exhale...Live... Fully.... ... ...
In this Moment.
MIRROR
I am everything
&
I am none
My consciousness unveils the
Surface seemly visual reality that
All that exists I can do
&
Have done
I have Loved surfacely
I have Smiled surfacely
I have
Therefore I am?
My subconscious unveils the
True reality of my existence that
I done
&
I am none of the above
For I am love
I am the smile of the sun, the moon
the universe
I am
My super subconscious unveils
That all of the above is the same
For I am and love and a smile are inseparable
BLESSED ASSURANCE
Thank you for your hatred
In it I have grown stronger
Mama-Mamas thank you for the props
Lifting, supporting, guiding me to understand
That in your hatred there is love
Thank you for the name calling
Thank you for labeling me non-human
In your ignorance and limitation of life
Your children and your children's children eliminate
The fear you held so dear to your heart
Calling it love
Mama-Mamas thank you for the love
Food you gave just enough to nourish
me
Building my mind-Recognizing that God is Me
Me is God - That we are all one
Yes Thank You for your Hatred
For you have shown me how to love.
THE LAST AND FIRST SONG
I did not know
That it would be
The last time
I heard him sing
It really was
In a lot of ways
The first time I heard him
Sing
Because his voice
When I first heard him
Was amongst
Many beautiful voices
But I now know
That his had to have been the most beautiful
Happy Birthday to You...he sang to her
His Sister
For the first and last time
It was the first and last song.
I UNDERSTAND...NOW..DADDY
"I helped build that sidewalk over there".
"I helped lay that foundation".
He always pointed out and said with pride.
I thought
"So".
Ignorance on my part
Now...I understand that he/they...Black Men built this country
Expressed Pride in their contributions...despite the stones thrown
All they ever wanted was acknowledgment
"I helped build that freeway over there".
A surge of energy...tears...sadness...shown
I thought "My Father".
Understanding now on my part
That what I was taught was how to be ignorant.
This country was built (literally) with the sweat, blood and tears...
Of Black Men
Its richness...success...progress...is theirs
Black Men
Black Women
Black Nations of People
God Help Us
&
God
Forgive
Our
Ignorance.
CHECKMATE
Because I could love her,
Because I could give her all she desired,
Because the tenderness I showed her,
Helped Her,
Feel,
Stronger,
Confident,
More of a Woman,
Independent,
...Human...,
Because she loved me,
She loved me.
Because she never had to doubt,
My sincerity,
My reasons,
My intentions,
Because she was happiest with me,
YOU wanted to kill me.
Because You wanted to kill me,
I discovered how insane human beings can be,
To promote themselves in continual ignorance,
To say they are God...,
And that God loves only certain persons,
Because I love her,
I know God is with me.
Because you are made of God's likeness and image...too,
I can love you too...No matter your ignorance,
And
I Do Love You.
WHAT A FRIEND
With the Sun behind me,
And the Moon in the front,
I have no reason to be afraid.
The Power of love, wisdom...peace,
Is my armour.
No battles will be lost.
With the Sun behind me,
And the Moon in front,
I'm like a rocket.
Jetting through Time and Space,
Fueled with Longevity and Infinity,
By the power of the bright, colorful rays of the
Sun.
Held solid and clear,
Creating beauty and strength,
Forever smiling...warmed all over,
Everlastingly secure...calm...divine,
With the coolness and clarity of the
Moon.
The Sun behind,
The Moon in front,
What a friend.
What a powerful picture.
Thank you Infinite Spirit.
Thank you God.
My path provides only happiness and success,
No matter what egos flutter around.
I need only shiver at the constant,
Miracles opening to, for, and in me.
As they open the egos fly away,
For there was never a place here,
For their landing.
