I see a delicate white bud, hiding behind a shade screen trying to block out some of the energy of the sun (source). Almost afraid to bloom for fear of having your blossom plucked. You feel the intensity of the sun (source) as overwhelming, afraid of the energy of radiance involved in fully blossoming. Also feeling overwhelmed by an imbalance of energy focused on your blossom and not on your roots. (when will I blossom, when is my time?) I see your roots in a small box, not enough nourishment from the earth, you've placed a barrier between you and the earth, you have a strong desire to settle in, ground yourself and begin drawing up nourishment from your surroundings, you desire beautiful, serene environment. I see you have your roots in this box so it can be carried around, you are complacent but inwardly resentful of not being settled in a beautiful garden. I see also a fear of someone else needing you in that box and that is your complacency but not your joy. I see many small leaves (avenues for growth, nourishment, etc.) mostly one sided though facing the past (perhaps looking at all you could have accomplished, did accomplish) I see several fresh new leaves beginning to unravel in front of you. New beginnings for opportunity, many large thorns tho as a defense should anything get to close. I also see an electric fence around you, walling you off from touch, people, protecting you. People get shocked when they come to close, using this see through "wall" as a defense mechanism. I see your stem as week from trying and trying to get more resources but you have limited your supply (the box you keep putting yourself in, the barrier). I see your roots trying hard to find a way out of the self imposed prison, reaching for that connection, that nourishment that comes from being grounded in YOUR reality. I see that you can break that box and "sink in" and begin to draw from your surroundings all that will nourish you and help to channel that tremendous creative flow.

Summary:

Boundaries, expectations, your own and others don't work for you! Stop protecting yourself from yourself/your source. Allow that creative energy to flow through you, to OVERWHELM YOU! You are not what other people expect and can not be without hiding your light. Lift the shade that "protects" you from your creative source. Brake out of the box you keep putting yourself in. Allow your roots to settle/ground yourself. Get out in nature, the dirt, garden, etc. Sit with plants and trees, observe nature and the balance of the plants how they draw on both the earth and the sky. Soar with the birds but make your nest to rest!